Time to reflect

As I sit outside watching Matt grill pork-chops and Mason stuff his face with Cheerios handfuls at a time. The leaves are slightly blowing and cars are passing by. 

I think about how thankful I am for many things in life that I truly take for granted.

It's disgusting how satan always tries to temp us. This morning in church they talked about how hard Sunday mornings are. Isn't that the truth. This morning we didn't want to get out of bed at 730 when usually I get up at 630. Then off the bat a small fight started. We got to church right at 830(which is late for me). The 2nd song we sang, Lord I Need You. We all need him all the time, every day.

I'm thankful for a relaxing weekend, family time at the orchard, for my husband to cook dinner so I can just relax even more and for the beautiful view of God's creation.

Are you really content?

As I find myself sitting here on the computer browsing, stressing about what I am going to do in a month or so, as my job at Schwan's is temporary. I keep searching pinterest for ideas and saying I need this and I want this but they aren't true needs. I just need to be content with what we have and realize how blessed I am. How some people don't have a tv/computer/phone let alone a house/husband/baby/car/heat. I might complain that I don't have many clothes that fit me anymore, but I do have clothes that will get me buy. I may not be content with the house we live in right now, but some people are living on the streets or going house to house.

 I need to realize GOD HAS THIS. God is in control of the situation and I need to let him be in control and not worry. 

It's hard though as we have finally found our house that we like but our house isn't sold yet, and I don't have a full time permanent job really destroys me and has me worrying. I just need to know that God has a plan, he is bigger than any problems I face and he will help us through it. 

We are fully starting a budget this week and that will help but it's hard I need self control. But we like to eat out some a lot I also like to buy things I think we need for the house and so hopefully this budget will help a lot! 

Head is spinning it's so crazy around here!

What a crazy last 3 weeks it's been since I last updated! Lets see here..

Mason got to meet Grandpa Blough who was visiting with Grandma from Pennsylvania. 

10/18/13

We had him dedicated - 10/20/13 

Grandpa and Grandma Blough, Grandpa and Grandma Speiser, Great Grandpa and Grandma Stager, Great Grandpa and Grandma Wolff, Gniffke Family, Uncle Nic, and Nicole attended. 

Our family with Pastor Doug

Cousins

Love his smile

I attempted to run a 5K I did about 1/2 mile straight(pretty good for not running for so long) and walked the other 1/2 so I ended up doing the 1 mile walk. This is also the longest I have ever left Mason, we left Friday night to go to the cities and came back Sunday afternoon. Daddy did a GREAT job taking care of Mr. Mason!!

Disney Ladies

When I was in the cities for the 5K I found this adorable little costume for Mason! Halloween we went to Studio B, and then we ate at the Hitching Post and came home! 

My lil caterpillar 

JD was a classmate of mine. The last time I saw him was in July at a wedding and I left upset at him. On October 14th he was taken from us by the Sioux Falls police. He was having a hard time and needed help. When police arrived they thought he was a threat to everyone since he had a gun, little did they know he would never harm anyone. He now leaves behind a beautiful little girl that will be 1 in a few weeks, and many friends and family that love him dearly. We had a benefit for him this weekend(11/2/13) and it was amazing the support that was there for his daughter, and family. 

T-Shirts, Car Decal, Bracelets, Can Koozies that were made

4 months and growing!! 

Mason is 4 months old! 

Nine, Ten - A Big, Fat Hen

--9 Weeks--

Thursday(8/29) We went to see our pediatrician since Mason hasn't been getting better. He said that we are feeding Mason to much it is running straight through him. So we cut back on feedings to 3oz again and he is doing so much better! Matt got to go to the vikings last pre-season game and sit 7 rows up!!

Friday(8/30) just hanging out in my bassinet! 

Saturday(8/31) Roesler's babysat Mason while we looked a few house, yes the secret is out, we are looking to buy a house. It may be in a few weeks, or a few months. There are many factors to if & when we buy one! We need to sell our house - I need to have a full time permanent job - and find a house that we LOVE.

Sunday(9/1) We woke up early to head to Life Light concert in Sioux Falls with the Gniffke Family! It was a beautiful - hot day, Matt & I even got burned! We did a little shopping and returned to Life Light at night to hear the Newsboys(AMAZING!!)

Monday(9/2) We went to Great Plains Zoo - it was my first time there since I was a kid and it was Matt & Mason's first time there! We had a beautiful drive home with an amazing sunset reminding us of how awesome God is! 

--10 Weeks--

Saturday(9/7) was the first time we have left Mason for a long period of time including over night, while we went to the Hansen/Harwood Wedding! Auntie Heather took good care of Mr. Mason!

Sunday(9/8) Ready to watch some more Viking football :) 

My life now as a MOM

--Mason 1 week old--

As many of you know I used to drink almost every weekend, then when I met Matt that slowed down quite a bit but still would on occasion. When I found out I was pregnant I was only 21 for not even 3 months, it was hard at first when we would go out with friends for supper and everyone was drinking except me. It has now been EXACTLY 9 months yesterday since I had my last drink but more importantly 9 months ago yesterday we found out that we were going to have a BABY!! It's crazy how things change and how my life revolved around partying and now it revolves around my son! 

Towards the end of my pregnancy I started to have some terrible dreams, most were about how I was going to fail at being a mom. I only talked to Matt about it but that's all I needed, one day he texted me and said "U will be a great mom. U have so much experience with kids. Hunnie don't doubt yourself. U are GREAT!!!!!!" That helped a lot but didn't take away the fact I was still scared to death. I haven't been getting an income for 5 weeks before Mason was born and I was going to have to take off at least 6 weeks..how are we going to get by? How am I going to buy little things we need for our family? -- by having FAITH that's how -- I would get so stressed, we didn't know how we were going to pay mortgage for July and August with me not working and Matt just kept saying God will help us figure it out...and he did. God was just testing my faith and ever since I had Mason my faith has grown stronger. 

God gave me a beautiful baby boy, healthy and strong. 

God has provided for my family in hard times.

God has never lost faith in me and has always been there to listen.

"My God's not dead he's surely alive, livin on the inside roarin like a lion" 

Typical day in our house....well there is no typical day! We just are living each day - day by day - soaking in every minute! Mason and I get to bond all day, which I love and as soon as daddy gets home he showers right away so that he can cuddle his little guy! I never knew how much I loved Matt until I saw the love he has for Mason! Mason is our world now, and nothing else matters. We have our little family of 3 and I couldn't ask for anything more! I was blessed with a very content baby who sleeps really good at night(anywhere from 3 1/2-5 1/2 hours). Which has also made being a first time mom a lot easier! And all the little things like how will we afford things have just worked out and fell into place! 

GOD IS AMAZING!

Prayers being answered!

1. Last Monday 3/11/13

We had our tax appointment and got good news back that we got enough back to pay off most of our unpaid bills!! It was so awesome to hear that and that we didn't have to pay in! :) 

2. Last Thursday 3/14/13

We bought our first big buy together!! We bought a 2004 Ford Taurus! I love it and it was in our price range with the perfect amount of miles! God was looking down on us!

3. Today 3/18/13

My first day of my new job! Today I started at US Bank! I have been praying for a new job for a little bit now and wasn't just going to take any job! I am now working in Data Entry as a Documentation Coordinator! I love it! It was a great day! Lots of information to take in being it was the first day but I really like this job! :)) 

God has surely blessed us this past week! It is just a reminder that just because he doesn't answer your prayers right away doesn't mean he isn't going to in the future you just have to have faith and patience! 

Circle Your Prayers

Yesterday in church, Pastor Grant told us to "Circle your life in prayer for God to Change" - they started to do this at the beginning of the month but I was either at children's church, or at Matt's parents - the goal was to write things down that you wanted God to change in your life and to watch throughout the month God work miracles. So I have wrote a couple down:

~ Cope with wedding - I pray that God can help me cope with how our wedding went and just be happy about it. Not be sad or mad about things that didn't happen. It has been 5 1/2 months and I still cry almost daily about things. This is a big topic at my next therapy session since we are getting the "bigger" things under control now.

~ Figure out daycare - I just pray that God will show me a way and answer about if daycare is my thing to do. In the past week I am believing God is working his ways. Will explain more at the end of the month!

~ Good/Healthy Pregnancy - I pray that my pregnancy will continue to be good and healthy. That our next appointment at the end of the month the baby will be healthy and growing good!

~ Family - Nothing hurts more then being torn in half between your own family, having to make decisions to make everyone happy. I just pray that God can mend our family back together. Matt and I are starting a family of our own and I just want nothing more then having our family back together.

~ Stress Free Month - I just pray God can ease my mind this month. That I not get worked up over little things or worry about money or anything that I just believe in him and trust in him. So far it's going good!

~ Emotions - I pray that I can keep my emotions under control. All my mind does is run run run...I just need a break sometimes. I cry over the littlest things and it's not even stress or fights it's just looking back into the past or little things said to me.

--I am so thankful for my therapist though. She really helps a lot and I am starting to do more things around the house to help Matt out. I really take him for granted some days. He does so much for me and my daycare. I just wish everyone could see how much he brutally does! --

NYC/PA

MATT AND I got to go to NYC for Thanksgiving! I am so thankful that he was able to come with! On our way to Omaha on Wed. night our car broke down in Sioux Falls. Thankfully God was watching over us and Tires Plus was a huge help and helped us out! We flew into Newark on Thursday(11/22) and my dad picked us up and brought us to my cousin Kay's house! We had Thanksgiving Dinner and just relaxed!! Friday we woke up and took the train(LIRR) into the city! We took a taxi to Rockefeller Center since Matt was not feeling the best. We first hit up Rockefeller Center to go to Top of the Rock. It was a beautiful site to see the skyline of NYC! After that we went to Grand Central Station-had to see it! Then we walked to the UN Building, Matt really liked this stop! We then went to Time Square because it was getting dark, it was awesome to see all the shops lite up! So pretty! Then we did the NBC Studios Tour which was a blast! We had an awesome day! Saturday we were going to go to the World Trade Center Memorial but Matt's fever got worse 103.1F. We tried to get him to go to urgent care but when we got there, there was quite a line and he didn't want to wait. So we started our 6hr drive to PA. 

Sunday we went to Grammy for the afternoon to watch football, take naps, and have a nice family dinner. After dinner we play the famous game of Dutch Blitz! It was so nice to be around family again! Monday we started our 6hr journey back to NJ stopping at Rita's in Belfonte and got to see the whole Purnell family! Monday we went to the mall to see dad at work and ate at The Cheesecake Factory after. It was very good. Tuesday we were suppose to fly out but our flight got cancelled so we had breakfast at IHOP then dad went to work so we just hung out and watched tv all day at the hotel! We then took him for supper at Longhorn Stakehouse. We were able to get on our flight on Wednesday morning and make the long drive home! We were in cars a lot! 

All in all it was a great vacation!

 Line up of taxis 

 Radio City at Rockefeller Center

 Matt & I at Top of the Rock

 Empire State Building!

 Ice Rink at Rockefeller Center

Rockefeller Center

Central Park

 Grand Central Station

 He was such a good sport!

 UN Building

 Outside of the UN Building

 The flags at the UN

 Time Square

 He is such an amazing husband!

Where the ball drops! 

...relaxation...

As a lot of you know I have been going through quite a bit with my new daycare and being pregnant....but it seems like as soon as things are looking better they get worse again...tonight was fun, it wasn't relaxing we were on our toes but I went to watch Ashtyn & Brayden (niece and nephew) play basketball, then we ate at Culvers, made a trip to goodwill and ended it at Walmart. It was def. a lot of laughs so that was good. But man I can not wait to be on vacation next week.

And...

This whole being pregnant thing is worst than a period for my emotions. I wish I wasn't so emotional but hey, we are having a baby and that is a gift from God! We are very excited and it's so hard keeping it in! I just want to shout it out! So I'm going to on here! "WE'RE PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!"

..Almost EIGHT weeks!..

We had another untrasound on Thursday, 11/8/12 to try to get a better measure of the heartbeat! Baby Speiser is still so tiny but we got the heartbeat this time! 

 The heart rate is 123bpm

 Look at our tinny baby!

Measuring 7 weeks on Thursday(11/8/12) so my new due date is 6/27/13

I flew to Colorado this past weekend and did really good! I didn't get sick at all so that was awesome! I still have been tired but the morning sickness is going away! My breast are also still very sore and tender but this is only the start so I better get used to it! :)) We are still very excited and can't wait to meet little baby Speiser! :)) God has surly blessed us!!

..Praise God!..

These last two weeks have been the best weeks in a long time for Matt & I. We have so much going the way we want it to right now we are just so thankful! We have got to have lots of family time and will have more this weekend! I just can not stop praising God for everything he has done for us. Prayers are getting answered. Last week I bought a ticket to see some friends in Denver,15 days away! && in 28 days we get to go to NYC to visit my dad then drive down to PA to see my mom and the rest of the family! So grateful! 

Sometimes things might not seem like they are going the way you want them to, but just give it time and pray! God does answer prayers!! 

Also, we love the Church we are going to and that helps a lot! We aren't just going to Church to say we are going, we love the worship and message, growing with God and each other. And I am now teaching Children's Church every other week! I find it really important everyone finds a Church they feel comfortable in and has the same beliefs, something where you are LOVING going and not dreading it, and WORSHIPING God, not just a Church that works for them. --Everything you have, God has provided for you, praise him for that!--